My name is David. I even called in once to talk to you on the radio about my marriage, but I didn't use my real name. You probably won't remember me so it's not worth trying to remind you what my question was then. But just in case it was almost a year ago. I really hated the information you gave me so I didn't follow your advice. But before I got the courage to call in that time, I had been reading your web site for a long time and I had thought that I was liking what you said. At that point I stopped reading it. But somehow I decided to start reading it again this past summer, and I've been reading it every month mostly ever since.
So, Victoria I want to try again. This time I want to be more open about hearing what you have to say. Also, it is a lot easier for me to read things instead of hearing things. So, I think I can 'get' it better (that's a word I've heard you use a lot) by reading what you say and not by listening to you on the radio.
Here is my question again. I need to know if the dream I had when I was 19 years old will ever come true? I am 36 now and I am afraid that the time I was supposed to meet up with a certain young woman has come and gone. When I had that dream, I can remember it in every detail even today. I even felt for a while that I was somehow living my life in the future. It's hard to describe and when I try to it gets me depressed, but it used to make me feel wonderful and even alive, if that makes any sense. My dream was about a real person who I knew at the college I was studying at, at that time. What I dreamed about was her and me when we would be about 26 or 27. The morning after I had the dream I had a strong gut feeling that she was going to be some sort of celebrity.
About two years ago I couldn't sleep one night. I finally got up and turned on the television and there she was! She was talking on a morning television show in my city. I couldn't believe it. Ever since then I have watched her almost every day even if it means that I have to get up extra early to do so. She is a lot more popular now than when I saw her back then and I think she is on the biggest station here.
Victoria, please believe me that I am not a stalker. I hope so much that you believe me. But if I hear that she's going to be at an event for some charity I always go. I have seen her probably at least 9 or 10 times. But I'm always afraid to approach her. I know I am a good person and would never do anything to be upsetting to her or anybody else.
Last year I decided that I was thinking about her too much and decided to back off. But, a couple of months later I had another dream about her and now I can't seem to get her out of my mind.
In case you don't remember talking to me on the radio that day, I don't want to tell you what city I'm in or what station she's on. I've never been able to get close enough her to have a conversation, because I am afraid.
I gave up thinking that anything would ever happen but recently I have started to watch her in the mornings again. I know that she has been married because she used to talk about it on the show. But I can tell from what she says on tv she is not married any more. She used to talk about her husband and children, but now she only mentions her children, and not very often.
When I asked you about her on the radio I know that you did say that you couldn't give me much information, because you only had one minute to give me any kind of an answer. But you did say that time here on earth was not what it looked like in other places. You said more but I forgot what you said. At that point I thought that was a stupid comment, I never wanted to hear you or read anything about you ever again.
Like I said before I'm trying to be more open to what you might have to say and I want to apologize from my heart for what I thought and said about you. I sincerely apologize.
After what I just said are you still willing to try and help me? I know that I am really connected to her in some way, because I always know when she is at the station, getting ready to go on. It's a feeling I get, and then when I turn on the tv a few minutes later she is just saying good morning to the audience.
Thank you for listening to me,
Don't worry about your not being able to handle the information I'd given you when you called me on that radio show' you're definitely not the first to not like what you hear...it's classic; when people aren't able to handle important information they need, what often happens is that instead of trying to think about it and see if the information might fit in some way (especially if the one was giving the information has been successful at doing so for a long time), they often attack the person who gave them the information that they weren't ready to hear yet. It's commonly called, 'Kill the messenger' ' This concept is so widely understood that it is often used in business scenarios.
When I find this happening, I always let it go, as I know it's that person's issue. I also ask my Spirit Guides to help these people receive the information better in some way, in the future; perhaps hearing it differently from someone else, or in a dream, etc. Believe it or not, I, myself, even reacted the very same way when a psychic many, many years ago told me that I would be a psychic myself' I absolutely did not want to hear that' or anything like that, at all!!! Just know that it's a common, human trait to go into major resistance when we're confronted with something that we're not ready to deal with.
David, I also do not believe that you are a stalker. If I did, I wouldn't be able to respond to you. I do, though, feel that you are 'over the top' about this whole relationship situation. (I need to be honest with you!) I am going to give you my reading on this, but I do also suggest that you find some wise therapist, who will show you a different perspective.
You were meant to meet up with this woman when you were both young and in some sort of education process, so that when you would meet up later on (do note that I said when' not: if!), you wouldn't be something like 'two ships passing in the night.' In other words, you were meant to have that early connection with her, so that you wouldn't be just be fascinated with her as a tv personality at some point but, would recognize her as someone you had had even a tiny history with' one which you would want to reactivate.
Now, I need to be honest with you, and tell you that the way you've been fanaticizing about her has not been reciprocated' much. However! She has, from time to time, had a 'flash,' seeing your face in her mind's eye' ! This, by the way, is a manifestation of your psychic connection with her. Another way of saying this, is that she was tuning into you where ever you might have been at that time.
Re the dream you had when you were 19 years old; I absolutely do believe that this was prophetic. Meaning that you were meant to be back in touch with each other in your late 20's, to explore a romantic relationship. One of the classic things I'm always hearing about with relationships that have gone sour is that, 'it wasn't meant to be.' What I have learned over the past 20 years, though, is unfortunately, somewhat different: many things which were meant to be--don't actually happen. Through not paying enough attention to intuition, too many past mistakes on the part of both parties, someone interfering, etc.
The fact that you did not meet up when you were meant to, a la according to your dream, is that you both had made some poor choices, which led you down such different paths that it looked as though you would never (in a cosmic way) meet up with each other' at least until it was 'too late' for anything romantic to happen.
The reason that you were guided to lose sleep that night, and to turn on the television, was to begin to 'get' that even though a lot of extra time has passed, it was still important enough that you each tried, anyway, to see if there was something left of the soul-level agreement' to make this work.
To call a spade a spade, she has moved into her career path in quite in quite a phenomenal way. David, here is what I'm proposing for you: that you are a bit behind in what you could be doing now to relate best with her, when you meet up again. What I'm trying to subtly tell you, is that you and she are going to be brought back together again, in some way!
Please, please, David don't let anything I'm telling you, upset you! Instead, let me suggest a few things for you to do to begin working on, before you meet up with her. I can't guarantee anything; all I can do is pass on the information I receive from my Guides, who are sharing with me the fact that you will have (at least) an opportunity to interact with each other in a friendship-to-romantic way.
By the way, you are meant to do voice-over, as one of the many things you do, career-wise. I'm not sure what you are doing now, but I can tell it has nothing to do with developing your voice with the intent to create an income stream from it' Voice-over has many components to it: virtually all of them have to do with being hired to fulfill a role needed by a company, an agent or producer. Voice-over usually entails being hired to do commercials, training videos, reading books on tape or even animated film roles. I propose that before you attempt ever meeting up with your secret friend again, you develop your voice in a professional way. Begin to have that be part of your livelihood; your career. Virtually all major cities will have classes available in how to do voice-over (it's very popular!). I know that you attended college/university, but many two-year institutions offer voice-over inexpensively. You don't need to go back to school for the degree; you just need to understand how to do voice-over.
I can see you, down the line (I'm seeing early 2008' ) going into a recording studio' and finding her there, also, doing some other sort of voice-over' with two of you being totally comfortable with seeing each other there!
The timing didn't work out the way it was meant to, for you two old soul-mates. However, whenever you are meant to do something, or be with someone important from the past (ie' past lives), the Universe opens enormous doors' it's up to each of us to walk through those doors' or slam them shut, which unfortunately, I find all too many people doing all the time'
Your case is not hopeless, at all! You just need to re-strategize how you deal with this: put your attention on developing yourself, and get away from being a teenie bit obsessive about her. In other words, this is about you, right now' versus her'
All the best,
Please also feel free to 'Google' Victoria Bullis!